An Open Letter To My Fellow Survivors:
You are not the
house of horrors
trauma built
inside of
you
They tried to fit us
into cheap hotel rooms
and jail cells and
locked wards
of hospitals
Slapped us with labels
the same way your abuser
first slapped you across
the face
And you ceased to be you
in one skin splitting
split second
as the mind splits
to wall off the trauma
Don't bleed on the good carpet
It takes courage
to look beyond
medical records
or a prison number
and see
your own humanity
in a society
That will weaponize
your trauma
against
you
Never let you up
off your knees
Shame you back
to your abuser
Police your body
What were you wearing
Did you keep your legs shut
This is the wound of being born
woman we all
carry
this is the price to pay
for daring
to embody
Goddess
Woman
Whore
Witch
Crone
For allowing just the smallest spark
of the divine feminine
to shine through
Never stop fighting
for you
For your right
to be the bravest woman
you’ve ever
incarnated
And to see her
in all the women
you'll ever
meet
-Written by Elizabeth Gade; first published by The View Magazine Summer 2022 Issue
Whipping Girls:
Could not good girl
my way to safety
Could not fawn
my way out of the
lion’s den
Inside every woman
is the need to exist
beyond the proximity
of men
Behind every mediocre man
is his own personal
whipping girl
Could not talk therapy
my way through it
Had to wade
waist deep through
the darkness my abusers
left behind
There is work to be done
mining the murky depths
of my subconscious
I am nothing
if not a
warrior
war shipped
woman
From the magdalen
bloodlines we rise
Serpent hipped
open lipped
to manifest
This poem is a
battle cry
The song of
women
rising
​
-Written by Elizabeth Gade; first published by The Elevation Review National Poetry Month 2022 Issue
Tried To be Good:
What if healing
and sobriety
was not something we
white knuckled into submission
but instead a slow unfurling
slow, slower
a patient cultivation of
sacred space
any place we dare
show up
broken but authentic
self-acceptance as a radical act of love
my embodiment of this
human experience is limitless
starkly flawed
I tried to be good. Had to settled for being wild and seen.
I carry this wildness into
the world
dragging it behind me like an anchor
was never white flag material
I make space on the yoga mat
and inside my heart
learn to lay boundaries
like fences
tend to myself first even when
it feels strange and foreign
I love you but I can never call you again
I am becoming
the woman
I showed up to be all those
lifetimes ago
I died a thousand deaths
to be this woman
one who chooses herself
every time
no matter the cost
A stand alone
scream from the soul
type of woman
she is free
​
-Written by Elizabeth Gade; first published by 300 Days Of Sun Vol 2 Issue 3 2022