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Misty Forest

An Open Letter To My Fellow Survivors:

You are not the

house of horrors

trauma built

inside of

you

 

They tried to fit us

into cheap hotel rooms

and jail cells and

locked wards

of hospitals

 

Slapped us with labels

the same way your abuser

first slapped you across

the face

 

And you ceased to be you

 

in one skin splitting

split second

 

as the mind splits

to wall off the trauma

 

Don't bleed on the good carpet

 

 

It takes courage

to look beyond

medical records

or a prison number

and see

 

your own humanity

in a society

 

That will weaponize

your trauma

against

you

 

Never let you up

off your knees

 

Shame you back

to your abuser

 

Police your body

 

What were you wearing

Did you keep your legs shut

 

This is the wound of being born

woman we all

carry

 

this is the price to pay

for daring

to embody

 

Goddess

Woman

Whore

Witch

Crone

 

For allowing just the smallest spark

of the divine feminine

to shine through

 

Never stop fighting

for you

 

For your right

to be the bravest woman

you’ve ever

incarnated

 

And to see her

in all the women

you'll ever

meet

-Written by Elizabeth Gade; first published by The View Magazine Summer 2022 Issue

Sky

Whipping Girls:

 

Could not good girl

my way to safety

 

Could not fawn

my way out of the

lion’s den

 

Inside every woman

is the need to exist

beyond the proximity

of men

 

Behind every mediocre man

is his own personal

whipping girl

 

Could not talk therapy

my way through it

 

Had to wade

waist deep through

the darkness my abusers

left behind

 

There is work to be done

mining the murky depths

of my subconscious

 

I am nothing

if not a

warrior

war shipped

woman

 

From the magdalen

bloodlines we rise

 

Serpent hipped

open lipped

to manifest

 

This poem is a

battle cry

 

The song of

women

rising

​

-Written by Elizabeth Gade; first published by The Elevation Review National Poetry Month 2022 Issue

White Room

Tried To be Good:

 

What if healing

and sobriety

was not something we

white knuckled into submission

 

but instead a slow unfurling

 

slow, slower

 

a patient cultivation of

sacred space

any place we dare

show up

broken but authentic

 

self-acceptance as a radical act of love

 

my embodiment of this

human experience is limitless

starkly flawed

 

I tried to be good. Had to settled for being wild and seen.

 

I carry this wildness into

the world

dragging it behind me like an anchor

was never white flag material

 

I make space on the yoga mat

and inside my heart

learn to lay boundaries

like fences

tend to myself first even when

it feels strange and foreign

 

I love you but I can never call you again

 

I am becoming

the woman

I showed up to be all those

lifetimes ago

 

I died a thousand deaths

to be this woman

one who chooses herself

every time

no matter the cost

 

A stand alone

scream from the soul

type of woman

 

she is free

​

-Written by Elizabeth Gade; first published by 300 Days Of Sun Vol 2 Issue 3 2022

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